So...I just checked my grades. To be honest, they're better then they've been in a long time.
Career Investigations= B
Basic Skills= A-
Lit.= B+
Spanish= B
Biology= D+
Choir= A
I don't know what my problem is in Biology! I like Biology, I pay attention to the teacher, I take notes, and I read the sections. I study. But I still manage to fail tests on a regular basis! The best grade I've gotten on a test is a 75 percent! Well, I think I've gotten better, but it was a while ago.
AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Anyhoo, I was so bored I wanted to SCREAM, so I decided to blog about my grades.
Oh yes, a few friends of mine went to see Rent in the twin cities, and apparently the original Roger and Mark were there. **squeal** I'm SO jealous!!!! Like, the ORIGINAL Roger and Mark!!! As in, Worked-With-Jonathon-Larson-Also-In-The-Movie Roger and Mark!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHH! WHY could I not have been there? WHY????????? **sob** I'm so full of envy, I might just cry.
xoxo,
Brii333
no QUOTE OF THE DAY today.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Human Rights Campaign Newsletter
Just checked my HRC newsletter and it is making me mad again.
Here it is...
Dear Brianna,
You were there when the American Family Association (AFA) tried to air an hour-long TV program of bigotry that claimed hate crime laws would "do away with our freedom of speech" and put pastors in jail.
Your outcry helped get the AFA's anti-LGBT tirade pulled. But with the federal hate crimes bill gaining traction, these same lies are spreading in the U.S. Congress.
That's why we're launching a full-throttle campaign to speak the truth and win this first critical legislative battle of 2009. We have a lot of work to do – but not a lot of time.
Help us raise $120,000 by April 3, when Congress goes to their home states and our campaign goes into high gear.
This is the time to become an HRC member, Brianna. We're offering first-time members an HRC whistle keychain as a symbol of your stake in this campaign. As the film Milk reminds us, early LGBT communities used whistles to protect against hate violence when law enforcement failed them. In 2009, isn't it time we had more than a whistle? Give now >>
Our grassroots strength is about to be tested. We're not just talking about one hateful TV program now, but an all-out effort to stop federal protections for our friends, family and neighbors.
Our opponents are using ruthless lies to intimidate members of Congress who are on the fence – like their claim that this law would "silence people of faith." Of course, the Matthew Shepard Act only pertains to physical violence, not hateful speech. So how do we get that message out?
By lobbying Congress relentlessly. By bringing clergy of all faiths to Washington to counter the anti-LGBT propaganda machine. By taking the fight to members' home districts starting April 3rd, with phone and email campaigns targeting their in-state offices. By filling their local papers with op-ed pieces and letters to the editor. By exposing right-wing deceit openly and publicly on our new website, www.endthelies.org.
It's all critical to winning this battle. But none of it is possible without your support. We need to raise $120,000 by next week to launch a comprehensive campaign against growing right-wing lies.
Join HRC today, and join the fight to pass the hate crimes bill. Give now and blow the whistle on right-wing lies with your free gift!
I can't stress enough the importance of winning on hate crimes. It would pave the way for other critical equality measures in 2009. And it would make millions more LGBT people feel safe in their homes, schools, workplaces, and communities. That gift is priceless.
Warmly,
Joe Solmonese
President
I had to lie about my age to even get the newsletter, so I can't officially join. But please, please, please help any way you can. Please.
This is wrong. Hate crime laws wouldn't stop freedom of speech, just the act of harming someone because of your beliefs against them. People can talk all they want--we just want to be able to feel we're safe.
thank you.
xoxo,
Brii333
Here it is...
Dear Brianna,
You were there when the American Family Association (AFA) tried to air an hour-long TV program of bigotry that claimed hate crime laws would "do away with our freedom of speech" and put pastors in jail.
Your outcry helped get the AFA's anti-LGBT tirade pulled. But with the federal hate crimes bill gaining traction, these same lies are spreading in the U.S. Congress.
That's why we're launching a full-throttle campaign to speak the truth and win this first critical legislative battle of 2009. We have a lot of work to do – but not a lot of time.
Help us raise $120,000 by April 3, when Congress goes to their home states and our campaign goes into high gear.
This is the time to become an HRC member, Brianna. We're offering first-time members an HRC whistle keychain as a symbol of your stake in this campaign. As the film Milk reminds us, early LGBT communities used whistles to protect against hate violence when law enforcement failed them. In 2009, isn't it time we had more than a whistle? Give now >>
Our grassroots strength is about to be tested. We're not just talking about one hateful TV program now, but an all-out effort to stop federal protections for our friends, family and neighbors.
Our opponents are using ruthless lies to intimidate members of Congress who are on the fence – like their claim that this law would "silence people of faith." Of course, the Matthew Shepard Act only pertains to physical violence, not hateful speech. So how do we get that message out?
By lobbying Congress relentlessly. By bringing clergy of all faiths to Washington to counter the anti-LGBT propaganda machine. By taking the fight to members' home districts starting April 3rd, with phone and email campaigns targeting their in-state offices. By filling their local papers with op-ed pieces and letters to the editor. By exposing right-wing deceit openly and publicly on our new website, www.endthelies.org.
It's all critical to winning this battle. But none of it is possible without your support. We need to raise $120,000 by next week to launch a comprehensive campaign against growing right-wing lies.
Join HRC today, and join the fight to pass the hate crimes bill. Give now and blow the whistle on right-wing lies with your free gift!
I can't stress enough the importance of winning on hate crimes. It would pave the way for other critical equality measures in 2009. And it would make millions more LGBT people feel safe in their homes, schools, workplaces, and communities. That gift is priceless.
Warmly,
Joe Solmonese
President
I had to lie about my age to even get the newsletter, so I can't officially join. But please, please, please help any way you can. Please.
This is wrong. Hate crime laws wouldn't stop freedom of speech, just the act of harming someone because of your beliefs against them. People can talk all they want--we just want to be able to feel we're safe.
thank you.
xoxo,
Brii333
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Angry (Again!)
You know what makes me so mad I could just spit?
When someone I care about is treated badly and there is nothing I can do about it.
A very good friend of mine (no names or details) is letting himself get kicked around, and he can't defend himself, because if he does, he will get sent away. And it pisses me off. I hate not being able to do anything for somebody but listen, hug them, smile at them and say, "Everything's going to turn out okay."
But what if everything doesn't turn out okay?
I want everything to be alright, really, I do. More then you know.
I want to help somehow.
But complaining about not being able to do anything isn't helping. I'm going to go back to reading Shakespear, and hope that he will have more good advice to give me. (Although, as I just started Hamlet, I somehow doubt anything helpful will be coming up.)
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Let your heart feel for the afflictions and distress of everyone."
~George Washington
"A sad soul can kill you far, far quicker then a germ."
~John Steinbeck
When someone I care about is treated badly and there is nothing I can do about it.
A very good friend of mine (no names or details) is letting himself get kicked around, and he can't defend himself, because if he does, he will get sent away. And it pisses me off. I hate not being able to do anything for somebody but listen, hug them, smile at them and say, "Everything's going to turn out okay."
But what if everything doesn't turn out okay?
I want everything to be alright, really, I do. More then you know.
I want to help somehow.
But complaining about not being able to do anything isn't helping. I'm going to go back to reading Shakespear, and hope that he will have more good advice to give me. (Although, as I just started Hamlet, I somehow doubt anything helpful will be coming up.)
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Let your heart feel for the afflictions and distress of everyone."
~George Washington
"A sad soul can kill you far, far quicker then a germ."
~John Steinbeck
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOOD GOD!!!!!!!!
Jesus Christ, does this woman even KNOW that nobody is listening to a word she's saying? Seriously?
Career Investigations is one of those classes that NOBODY PAYS ATTENTION TO. Really. It tries to grab your attention, and it just doesn't work. Not even for a second.
But the bell is going to ring for my escape, so bye-bye.
GOOD GOD!!!!!!!!
Jesus Christ, does this woman even KNOW that nobody is listening to a word she's saying? Seriously?
Career Investigations is one of those classes that NOBODY PAYS ATTENTION TO. Really. It tries to grab your attention, and it just doesn't work. Not even for a second.
But the bell is going to ring for my escape, so bye-bye.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
John Green [is Godly]
I love this author. Not only is there a character in every book that I can relate to, it's just fun to read. Not many books have both, and I love it when ALL of an author's books do. It makes me happy.
Anyway, I'm reading An Abundance of Katherines right now. I'm about halfway through it, and it totally makes sense. I really relate to the character Lindsey--A chameleon who bites her thumb and enjoys talking with super smart people. At least, that's who she is right now. I don't know about later in the book, because I'm only on page 151. But anyway.
I've also determined that with Colin's bell curve, I am nearly all the way to the right, meaning I'm an almost complete Dumpee. If you have not read the book, the bell curve is this: at the left end of the bell curve, there is the extreme Dumper--the person who pretty much only dumps people and is RARELY dumped. On the far right, there is the Dumpee--the one who very rarely dumps somebody else and is very nearly always the one being dumped. I am not a complete Dumpee, but I am so incredibly close to being a complete Dumpee that that end of the curve is biting me in the ass. Well, not quite that close. But you get the general idea.
Anyhoo, read John Green's books. They are amazing. (Looking for Alaska is my personal favorite. It kicks ass.)
xoxoxo,
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"I'm full of shit. I'm never myself. I'm nothing. The thing about chameleoning your way through life is that it gets to where nothing is real. Things about you, and things about Colon, and things about Hassan and Katrina, are either true or they aren't true. But I'm not like that. I'm what I need to be at any moment to stay above the ground but below the radar. The only sentance that begins with 'I' that's true of me is I'm full of shit."
~Lindsey, John Green, An Abundance of Katherines, page 150
Anyway, I'm reading An Abundance of Katherines right now. I'm about halfway through it, and it totally makes sense. I really relate to the character Lindsey--A chameleon who bites her thumb and enjoys talking with super smart people. At least, that's who she is right now. I don't know about later in the book, because I'm only on page 151. But anyway.
I've also determined that with Colin's bell curve, I am nearly all the way to the right, meaning I'm an almost complete Dumpee. If you have not read the book, the bell curve is this: at the left end of the bell curve, there is the extreme Dumper--the person who pretty much only dumps people and is RARELY dumped. On the far right, there is the Dumpee--the one who very rarely dumps somebody else and is very nearly always the one being dumped. I am not a complete Dumpee, but I am so incredibly close to being a complete Dumpee that that end of the curve is biting me in the ass. Well, not quite that close. But you get the general idea.
Anyhoo, read John Green's books. They are amazing. (Looking for Alaska is my personal favorite. It kicks ass.)
xoxoxo,
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"I'm full of shit. I'm never myself. I'm nothing. The thing about chameleoning your way through life is that it gets to where nothing is real. Things about you, and things about Colon, and things about Hassan and Katrina, are either true or they aren't true. But I'm not like that. I'm what I need to be at any moment to stay above the ground but below the radar. The only sentance that begins with 'I' that's true of me is I'm full of shit."
~Lindsey, John Green, An Abundance of Katherines, page 150
Stimulus
So, I've been trying to find something that summerizes Obama's stimulus plan in a way I understand, and I have been thus far unsuccessful.
Nevermind, Michael just explained it to me. It still doesn't make sense. Why would you give money to all the big cooperations and hope that it trickles down to the little people when it's the big cooperations that have money and the little people who...don't. Wouldn't it make more sense to give money to the people who don't have money and then tell them to spend it? That way, the big cooperations would get it in a roundabout sort of way and everything would be lovely. WTL?
I gotta go to class.
Complain to you Later,
Brii333
Nevermind, Michael just explained it to me. It still doesn't make sense. Why would you give money to all the big cooperations and hope that it trickles down to the little people when it's the big cooperations that have money and the little people who...don't. Wouldn't it make more sense to give money to the people who don't have money and then tell them to spend it? That way, the big cooperations would get it in a roundabout sort of way and everything would be lovely. WTL?
I gotta go to class.
Complain to you Later,
Brii333
Red Dwarf (A Review)
Ahhh, British humor. You have to love it.
If you like Monty Python, you will like Red Dwarf. It's a science fiction comedy from the late eighties to early nineties, set aboard the space vessel Red Dwarf. Lister, a young man working on the ship, gets put into stasis for what he thinks will only be eighteen months when he refuses to surrender his pregnant cat, Frankenstein, to the ship's captain. When he is let out, however, it is three million years later, and everyone on the ship is dead, except for Cat, a human-like creature descended from cats, and Holly, the ship's computer. Also with them is a hologram of Lister's former bunkmate, Rimmer, who is a complete and total smeghead.
Basically, the show spends most of the time making a lot of fun of science fiction movies and TV shows, such as Star Trek and 2001: A Space Oddessy.
I don't know that my quick summerization gave it justice, but whatever. It's funny as hell. WATCH IT.
To watch the first episode for free, go onto YouTube, type in "Red Dwarf Season 1 Episode 1," and there should be a set of five videos (parts 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5) that is the first episode. I would just give you the links, but I cannot get onto YouTube here (at school) because it is blocked. (smegheads.)
XOXO
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Oh Smeg. What the smegging smeg's he smegging done?"
~Lister, Red Dwarf (1995 VHS "Red Dwarf: Smeg Outs", season III, episode "Bodyswap")
"Well, that was about as useful as a condom machine in the Vatican."
~Lister, Red Dwarf (I don't remember what episode, I think it was in season 2 or three)
If you like Monty Python, you will like Red Dwarf. It's a science fiction comedy from the late eighties to early nineties, set aboard the space vessel Red Dwarf. Lister, a young man working on the ship, gets put into stasis for what he thinks will only be eighteen months when he refuses to surrender his pregnant cat, Frankenstein, to the ship's captain. When he is let out, however, it is three million years later, and everyone on the ship is dead, except for Cat, a human-like creature descended from cats, and Holly, the ship's computer. Also with them is a hologram of Lister's former bunkmate, Rimmer, who is a complete and total smeghead.
Basically, the show spends most of the time making a lot of fun of science fiction movies and TV shows, such as Star Trek and 2001: A Space Oddessy.
I don't know that my quick summerization gave it justice, but whatever. It's funny as hell. WATCH IT.
To watch the first episode for free, go onto YouTube, type in "Red Dwarf Season 1 Episode 1," and there should be a set of five videos (parts 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5) that is the first episode. I would just give you the links, but I cannot get onto YouTube here (at school) because it is blocked. (smegheads.)
XOXO
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Oh Smeg. What the smegging smeg's he smegging done?"
~Lister, Red Dwarf (1995 VHS "Red Dwarf: Smeg Outs", season III, episode "Bodyswap")
"Well, that was about as useful as a condom machine in the Vatican."
~Lister, Red Dwarf (I don't remember what episode, I think it was in season 2 or three)
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Injustice/Would you please explain Obama's stimulus plan to me?
GAY MEN BANNED FROM DONATING BLOOD????
wtf.
I understand why; they have a documented higher risk of passing HIV/AIDS. Whatever. But can't they just get tested for HIV? I mean, don't we need donated blood? There was something about needing donated blood awhile back, I think. Or maybe I'm just super sensative to this shit. Whatever.
This policy was put into action by the FDA in 1983. I hadn't heard of it, until I was randomly looking through articals about political crap (which makes me angry anyway, I don't know why I do it...) and I ran across this artical right here: http://www.lifesitenews.com/ldn/2007/may/07052505.html
Okay, the LGBT community just wants to live like it's another healthy lifestyle course. We understand that it's hard to live this way, but do people have to make it more difficult? I also understand that I will never have to worry about this policy, as I'm a female, but several of my good friends WILL have to deal with it, and this automatically makes it a problem with me, too. It's pissing me off.
Also, several states have banned homosexual couples from adopting.
The only state that says outright that homosexuals cannot adopt is florida, but Mississippi banns "same gender" couples from adopting, as does Utah, though single gays and lesbians may adopt.
Where is the justice!!!!!!
I know I say that a lot. Maybe I should just stop reading that stupid HRC newsletter. It always manages to piss me off.
One thing that confuses me about all this crap is the Catholic church. I've got nothing against Catholics in general--half my family and a few of my friends are Catholics. But what bothers me is that the Vatican says that homosexuality is a sin and then has the nerve to cover up pedefilia among their...er...subjects, preists, whatever.
They're all a load of complete and total smegheads.
Not only that, but I do not understand Obama's stimulus plan. So if anybody would like to explain that to me, it would be much appreciated.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Who would give a law to lovers? Love is unto itself a higher law."
~Boethius, The Consolation of Philosophy, A.D. 524
"If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work: 'Hello. Can't work today, still queer.'"
~Robin Tyler
wtf.
I understand why; they have a documented higher risk of passing HIV/AIDS. Whatever. But can't they just get tested for HIV? I mean, don't we need donated blood? There was something about needing donated blood awhile back, I think. Or maybe I'm just super sensative to this shit. Whatever.
This policy was put into action by the FDA in 1983. I hadn't heard of it, until I was randomly looking through articals about political crap (which makes me angry anyway, I don't know why I do it...) and I ran across this artical right here: http://www.lifesitenews.com/ldn/2007/may/07052505.html
Okay, the LGBT community just wants to live like it's another healthy lifestyle course. We understand that it's hard to live this way, but do people have to make it more difficult? I also understand that I will never have to worry about this policy, as I'm a female, but several of my good friends WILL have to deal with it, and this automatically makes it a problem with me, too. It's pissing me off.
Also, several states have banned homosexual couples from adopting.
The only state that says outright that homosexuals cannot adopt is florida, but Mississippi banns "same gender" couples from adopting, as does Utah, though single gays and lesbians may adopt.
Where is the justice!!!!!!
I know I say that a lot. Maybe I should just stop reading that stupid HRC newsletter. It always manages to piss me off.
One thing that confuses me about all this crap is the Catholic church. I've got nothing against Catholics in general--half my family and a few of my friends are Catholics. But what bothers me is that the Vatican says that homosexuality is a sin and then has the nerve to cover up pedefilia among their...er...subjects, preists, whatever.
They're all a load of complete and total smegheads.
Not only that, but I do not understand Obama's stimulus plan. So if anybody would like to explain that to me, it would be much appreciated.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Who would give a law to lovers? Love is unto itself a higher law."
~Boethius, The Consolation of Philosophy, A.D. 524
"If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work: 'Hello. Can't work today, still queer.'"
~Robin Tyler
"Sober" P!nk
I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home
Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like protection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?
Aahh, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
But I, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself - SOBER (x2)
When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a fit
Ooo Oooo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober
OOooo OOoo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do I feel this good sober?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89V7hvEmSD8&feature=channel_page
Don't you just hate it when a song tells you something about yourself you tried to pretend you didn't know? The realization makes you hate yourself even more then you already did.
Okay, I'll stop being all depressing now.
xoxo,
Brii333
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home
Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like protection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?
Aahh, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
But I, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself - SOBER (x2)
When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a fit
Ooo Oooo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober
OOooo OOoo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do I feel this good sober?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89V7hvEmSD8&feature=channel_page
Don't you just hate it when a song tells you something about yourself you tried to pretend you didn't know? The realization makes you hate yourself even more then you already did.
Okay, I'll stop being all depressing now.
xoxo,
Brii333
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Matchmaking, Bisexual, Unfairness
Mother Dearest has gotten around to the matchmaking stage of my life. **sigh** Jeez, Mom, I'm a relationship sort of girl, but I've pretty much gotten used to the fact that nobody else is interested in a relationship with me. (Nobody who likes me for me, anyway.) I don't need her bringing things up randomly like "Well, why don't you ask **insert name here** out? He's a nice boy!" or things like that. It's like she can't put up with the fact that I'm single, or something. And it's always boys she brings up, too. That fact certainly isn't lost on me. You know, boys might be easier to date simply because I wouldn't have to tell Dad's Catholic family "Oh, btw, I'm dating a girl now..." It would suck to have to hide all the time, though. God.
Life's hard all around, isn't it?
What am I going to do? I don't want to hide my bisexual-ness, but in the same point, I'm a coward. I'm terrified of my family's reaction, especially since I found out that when they discovered Mom's a lesbian, my grandparents tried to get Dad to go for full custody of me so Mom could never see me.
Why does everything have to be so complicated! Dammit!
And what really gets me is that I know I'm not the only one dealing with this problem.
Why can't the cycle of hate just end already? I'm so sick of it. Sick to my core, because the human race just can't accept things for the way they are. They have to hate something if it's even remotely different. And I know I'm the same way. I'd be a hypocryte if I said I wasn't. I just wish it was different.
thanks for listening to my spew. I just had to get some of that crap out of my system. I've been so moody lately! Maybe that'll lessen up a bit now.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
Be as beneficent as the sun or the sea, but if your rights as a rational being are trenched on, die on the first inch of your territory.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Life's hard all around, isn't it?
What am I going to do? I don't want to hide my bisexual-ness, but in the same point, I'm a coward. I'm terrified of my family's reaction, especially since I found out that when they discovered Mom's a lesbian, my grandparents tried to get Dad to go for full custody of me so Mom could never see me.
Why does everything have to be so complicated! Dammit!
And what really gets me is that I know I'm not the only one dealing with this problem.
Why can't the cycle of hate just end already? I'm so sick of it. Sick to my core, because the human race just can't accept things for the way they are. They have to hate something if it's even remotely different. And I know I'm the same way. I'd be a hypocryte if I said I wasn't. I just wish it was different.
thanks for listening to my spew. I just had to get some of that crap out of my system. I've been so moody lately! Maybe that'll lessen up a bit now.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
Be as beneficent as the sun or the sea, but if your rights as a rational being are trenched on, die on the first inch of your territory.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Friday, March 20, 2009
Runaway Voice, Me+Theatre=L♥VE
Guess where Brii's voice was this morning! Not with her, that's for sure. I could barely speak above a whisper. Six days before performance is NOT a good time to get sick. It's sort of back now, because I'm on my second thermos of peppermint tea (we ran out of lemon). Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
SHIT!
anyhoo, my costume fits, I know all my lines and movements, and I've gotten to where I'm past my nervousness at acting all whore-like on my friend's boyfriend. Now I just need my voice back. Shiz.
I love theatre. The lights, the crowd, the costumes, the memorization, the singing...even the night-before jitters. there's something about it, bringing the glitter and paint and cloth together to make magic, and then mixing in words and people to complete a beautiful, spellbinding effect.
And theatre is one of the few places I'm allowed to use my full voice. I'm forever being told to lower my voice, even though i' only speaking in a moderate tone. and on stage, I get to let loose. I don't have to hold back.
And I don't have to be myself.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"I personally would like to bring a tortoise onto the stage, turn it into a racehorse, then into a hat, a song, a dragoon and a fountain of water. One can dare anything in the theatre and it is the place where one dares the least."
~EUGENE IONESCO, Notes and Counter Notes
"It has not been definitively proved that the language of words is the best possible language. And it seems that on the stage, which is above all a space to fill and a place where something happens, the language of words may have to give way before a language of signs whose objective aspect is the one that has the most immediate impact upon us."
~ANTONIN ARTAUD, The Theatre and Its Double
"Drama lies in extreme exaggeration of the feelings, an exaggeration that dislocates flat everyday reality."
~EUGENE IONESCO, Notes and Counter Notes
SHIT!
anyhoo, my costume fits, I know all my lines and movements, and I've gotten to where I'm past my nervousness at acting all whore-like on my friend's boyfriend. Now I just need my voice back. Shiz.
I love theatre. The lights, the crowd, the costumes, the memorization, the singing...even the night-before jitters. there's something about it, bringing the glitter and paint and cloth together to make magic, and then mixing in words and people to complete a beautiful, spellbinding effect.
And theatre is one of the few places I'm allowed to use my full voice. I'm forever being told to lower my voice, even though i' only speaking in a moderate tone. and on stage, I get to let loose. I don't have to hold back.
And I don't have to be myself.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"I personally would like to bring a tortoise onto the stage, turn it into a racehorse, then into a hat, a song, a dragoon and a fountain of water. One can dare anything in the theatre and it is the place where one dares the least."
~EUGENE IONESCO, Notes and Counter Notes
"It has not been definitively proved that the language of words is the best possible language. And it seems that on the stage, which is above all a space to fill and a place where something happens, the language of words may have to give way before a language of signs whose objective aspect is the one that has the most immediate impact upon us."
~ANTONIN ARTAUD, The Theatre and Its Double
"Drama lies in extreme exaggeration of the feelings, an exaggeration that dislocates flat everyday reality."
~EUGENE IONESCO, Notes and Counter Notes
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Math Athiest (Calvin and Hobbes)
I hate math. I've used nearly every excuse under the sun to try and get away from it, and still, I cannot avoid it! And then...Calvin and Hobbes gave me hope.
Amazing, no?
I wonder what my teacher will think when I tell her it's against my religeon.
xoxo,
Brianna
QUOTE OF THE DAY
I never did very well in math - I could never seem to persuade the teacher that I hadn't meant my answers literally.
~Calvin Trillin
Amazing, no?
I wonder what my teacher will think when I tell her it's against my religeon.
xoxo,
Brianna
QUOTE OF THE DAY
I never did very well in math - I could never seem to persuade the teacher that I hadn't meant my answers literally.
~Calvin Trillin
Friday, March 13, 2009
Career Investigations, Planning, and Not Wanting To Plan
I'm bored out of my goddamn skull...
Let's just say this: school is most definately NOT the epitome of my life.
Why? I mean, seriously!!! Okay, I'll give you that some of the classes are just fine--Biology, Literature, and maybe even the Math classes can be useful at times...but Career Investigations???
What the fuck???
To be honest, I think it is one of the most pointless and mind-numbing class EVER. Basically, we read out of a book (which is full of stupid statistics I didn't want to know in the first place), then we type up a bunch of crap about different careers, and then we...start over. For the love of Xenu, WHY? (Okay, I admit... that sentance is only there because I wanted to say Xenu. "Xenu, Xenu, Xenu"...lol.)
Anyhoo, the only remotly interesting part of the class is the "Daily Career Search" at the beginning of the class, and that gets pretty old REALLY fast.
I don't want to be in this class! seriously! I don't want to be told that I have to start planning the rest of my life now!!! Why do I have to plan now? I'm fifteen, for God's sake! Honestly, I don't see the point. I just want to go with the flow, see where life takes me. The ancient peoples didn't plan everything out, at least not most of them. I'd rather just...I dunno. I guess I just am sick of all of this crap. I need to get out and do something! I want to just wander, without any idea where I'm going to end up or how I'll get there. It seems like a less stressful, full way to live. The people who plan their lives out ahead of time always end up disappointed when it doesn't turn out the way they thought. I don't want to be disappointed when I fuck everything up.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Plenty sit still. Hunger is a wanderer."
~Zulu Proverb
"Beyond the east the sunrise,
Beyond the west the sea,
And east and west the wanderthirst
That will not let me be."
~Gerald Gould
Let's just say this: school is most definately NOT the epitome of my life.
Why? I mean, seriously!!! Okay, I'll give you that some of the classes are just fine--Biology, Literature, and maybe even the Math classes can be useful at times...but Career Investigations???
What the fuck???
To be honest, I think it is one of the most pointless and mind-numbing class EVER. Basically, we read out of a book (which is full of stupid statistics I didn't want to know in the first place), then we type up a bunch of crap about different careers, and then we...start over. For the love of Xenu, WHY? (Okay, I admit... that sentance is only there because I wanted to say Xenu. "Xenu, Xenu, Xenu"...lol.)
Anyhoo, the only remotly interesting part of the class is the "Daily Career Search" at the beginning of the class, and that gets pretty old REALLY fast.
I don't want to be in this class! seriously! I don't want to be told that I have to start planning the rest of my life now!!! Why do I have to plan now? I'm fifteen, for God's sake! Honestly, I don't see the point. I just want to go with the flow, see where life takes me. The ancient peoples didn't plan everything out, at least not most of them. I'd rather just...I dunno. I guess I just am sick of all of this crap. I need to get out and do something! I want to just wander, without any idea where I'm going to end up or how I'll get there. It seems like a less stressful, full way to live. The people who plan their lives out ahead of time always end up disappointed when it doesn't turn out the way they thought. I don't want to be disappointed when I fuck everything up.
xoxo,
Brii333
QUOTES OF THE DAY
"Plenty sit still. Hunger is a wanderer."
~Zulu Proverb
"Beyond the east the sunrise,
Beyond the west the sea,
And east and west the wanderthirst
That will not let me be."
~Gerald Gould
Friday, March 6, 2009
Beauty and the Beast
Our school is putting on the production Beauty and the Beast for this year's musical. I get to be a Silly Girl (I was going to be the old crone that turns the prince into the Beast, but I got promoted when someone quit). The costumes are ADORABLE, and the part is entertaining. However, I have to whore on Gaston, who is played by Colton, who is a friend of mine's boyfriend.
How awkward could you get??? I mean, yeah, I'll be wearing a wig and stage makeup, but it's still really weird. It helps that I came up with an alter-ego (her name's Annette), but a little part of my brain keeps going, "ugh, Emily's going to KILL me..."
So I just wanted to rant about being awkward. I can handle it. Part of it might be was that I was the only one of three Silly Girls at practice, so I was the only one up there dangling off Colton's arm/shoulder. I think it would be a lot easier if they were there as well.
BLAH!
Brii333
How awkward could you get??? I mean, yeah, I'll be wearing a wig and stage makeup, but it's still really weird. It helps that I came up with an alter-ego (her name's Annette), but a little part of my brain keeps going, "ugh, Emily's going to KILL me..."
So I just wanted to rant about being awkward. I can handle it. Part of it might be was that I was the only one of three Silly Girls at practice, so I was the only one up there dangling off Colton's arm/shoulder. I think it would be a lot easier if they were there as well.
BLAH!
Brii333
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Pissed Again
I've been thinking again. (Jeez, I've been doing a lot of that...)
The people in the area I live in (The Almost-Edge-Of-Nowhere, Minnesota) don't seem to really pay attention to the outside world. It looks to me that they read just the headlines of the news, and they assume that everything's just lovely or absolutely dreadful or whatever the front page says that day.
It makes me so sad.
The worst part is that they all, young and old, think that going to war is the solution for everything. They applaud when we send troops to Iraq, and then that goes sour, so they think that taking our men and women out of Iraq and sending them to Afghanistan will fix what we've fucked up. There are no cares about the innocent people who live there, the children and elderly, the men and women who just want to feed their families. We really know nothing about them, and no one cares.
It makes me sick, and as hard as I try, I can't get them to think about what they're saying, what they're approving.
How could people who are usually so genuinly good stand for something so wrong?
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"One is left with the horrible feeling now that war settles nothing; that to win a war is as disasterous as to lose one."
~Agatha Christie
The people in the area I live in (The Almost-Edge-Of-Nowhere, Minnesota) don't seem to really pay attention to the outside world. It looks to me that they read just the headlines of the news, and they assume that everything's just lovely or absolutely dreadful or whatever the front page says that day.
It makes me so sad.
The worst part is that they all, young and old, think that going to war is the solution for everything. They applaud when we send troops to Iraq, and then that goes sour, so they think that taking our men and women out of Iraq and sending them to Afghanistan will fix what we've fucked up. There are no cares about the innocent people who live there, the children and elderly, the men and women who just want to feed their families. We really know nothing about them, and no one cares.
It makes me sick, and as hard as I try, I can't get them to think about what they're saying, what they're approving.
How could people who are usually so genuinly good stand for something so wrong?
Brii333
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"One is left with the horrible feeling now that war settles nothing; that to win a war is as disasterous as to lose one."
~Agatha Christie
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